I’ve been trying to wean myself off the OxyCodone’s. The list of side effects is mounting and I’m really not feeling that great. Headaches,dizziness, dry throat, my voice is sometimes hoarse and the weirdest bouts of the hiccups aligned with the lethargy and fatigue; I feel like I’m being drained. My moods are becoming a bit more agitated, and I feel like a volcano that needs to erupt. I took another tumble today, most likely because of the constant imbalance I feel when I stand up (albeit on one leg). My left leg is taking the brunt of my weight and exertion. I’m a disaster on crutches.
I was a bit curious on the success of my surgery; I attempted today to wiggle my big toe on my right foot. (Flashback to Kill Bill, Volume 1-The Bride: ”Wiggle your big toe”. My own meek and painful attempt at trying to be funny.) I managed to wiggle it a smidge forward, however of course the pain was pulsing through my foot like a house on fire. No pain-no gain? Not in this case.
The itchiness within the cast is sometimes intolerable. I’ve been tempted to slide a chopstick down the cast and just giving myself a good scratch. I’ve decided against that; most likely because I don’t really know how high up the stitches go and I shudder to think the impact if I rip them open. I just fantasize that I am giving my foot a good scratch and that seems to help. I put that aside to my list of “…Adding to my agitation”.
This endeavour is being handled one day at a time and I want to keep up my positive thinking. I have 7 more weeks with a no weight bearing cast on, then months to rehabilitate and learn how to walk again.
Focus and Come Back
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